I have reason to believe that God has awarded me something that would somehow take my pain away. My family is furious. But I hold no anger in my heart. If anything, my knowledge of it has brought a sense of calm to my otherwise chaotic days. It's something grave but I do not feel any fear for my well-being. My family is, though. But my problems are mine, and,though, in time, I WILL be needing their help, I asked for breathing space. To help myself figure out what to do. I am not about to make the same mistakes, for which I have been carrying crosses up to now. Time will tell me if I am doing the right thing. And, If there is needed truth to my/our belief. For now, I wait because I think I am stronger. It will be something I am to lock behind the steel door I managed to build in 3 days. My family will understand my choices, even if this one will contradict their principles.

Man truly is the plaything of the gods.

Life has room for more secrets. And only I will know.