DREAMS

At exactly 6AM this morning, I woke up breathless and almost livid. I was chasing after Animator in my dream. He was with this pretty, but tacky, girl and they were walking with their arms around each other along Ayala Ave. No matter how much I screamed and how fast I ran, he could not hear. He would not listen. They looked so inlove and happy.

At exactly 9:20AM this morning, I woke up again breathless and more livid. It was Christmas morning in my dream and I was trying to get ahold of Executive on his cellphone. I was at my grandmother's house in Davao, and, naturally, he was here in Manila. His phone rang for what seemed like an eternity. I was about to give up and curse him for letting me believe he would be there on Christmas when a woman answered the phone. It was his so-called wife. He never returned my call. He never sent me a text message.

At exactly 12:45PM today, I realized that both dreams must be sign for something. It's not usual for a person to dream of her two loved ones consecutively, both of which were convinced they were leaving her. In this case, they were leaving me.

What do dreams mean, anyway? I texted both of them this morning and only Animator replied. It's an omen. Maybe I should really, truly stop believing I have a life with Executive and be happy with Animator.

Perhaps the church should make love the 8th deadly sin.