Last night...

xxx: stop it! it's for your own good. both of you will get hurt more. before you get super emotional and involved, stop it na.
me: but I can't. you don't understand.
xxx:if he really loves you, he shouldn't have done it.
me: i know this is madness. but i need to hate him so I can let go. right now, I really really can't.
xxx: hate him for what he did! hate him for being weak!
me: but he has more of me than anything else.
xxx:all the more reason you should hate him! the more you see him, the more he's gonna take away "things" from you!!

God, give me a sign. I need help. :(

This vacation has turned my heart into lead. I wish to return to Manila immediately.

Aside from that, I wish HE'd stop making promises he can't keep and statements/declarations that are often empty. If he wants me to trust him, he has to begin showing he deserves it.

One thing I hate is being taken for granted. Especially in such a sensitive case. Nakakawala ng amor.